I AM SO JEALOUS OF ONE OF MY FRIENDS. D; She lives in Sweden. And it has to do with The Killers. But I can't say why I'm jealous because I promised I wouldn't, so until I get the "okay," you all must be left in the dark. (Actually, I feel pretty awesome having inside info NONE OF YOU know about! ) I feel kick ass and might go write a Tritina now.

I've also been obsessing over The Cure lately. They're one of my favorite bands along with Satb, Killers, FF.... I'll stop here D: ...but I've fallen in love again.

My mom's step-dad was doing better, but then his body went into fail mode and died last Friday. I haven't tried calling my grandma. =/ I've never been good at comforting sad people.

My aunt is delusional and thinks that she had a special relationship with her step-dad, so she's acting like she's all upset but with a facade of "oh whut I'm being strong and will get through this hard time. LEAVE ME ALONE YOU DON'T KNOW WHAT IT'S LIKE TO LOSE SOMEONE CLOSE." Like I said: delusions.

And no, I'm not being unsympathetic. You people don't know my aunt. D; I also wasn't close to him at all so I don't feel a major loss in my life. Kind of like when I was eight and didn't care that my dad's mom died because I thought she was an evil and cruel person who'd expire anyway due to bad karma. (The only time I've felt upset and impacted by someone's death was when my great-grandpa died. See, aunt, I do "know" and care for people.)

I'm still jealous. D;
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7/1/09: So from the last time I updated my journal I have learned two very important things:

1) When you see that your mother is calling you at 2 AM, or any ungodly time in the early morning, do NOT answer it. Please, for the love of the Coca-Cola Company and your sanity, let the damn phone ring!

2) When your mother "asks" (but is really demanding) that you do something, DO IT, and do it quickly. Make no comment about how you never said you'd do it, and so, technically, she is demanding it be done butIhaveahardtimebitingmytongue.

My mom is out of the hospital now... Broke her hip, had surgery, and she is now exhausting me. Her step-dad is still in ICU, but he’s made some progress from what I've heard.

Today I chose to walk to three different places; I refused to call a friend or call a cab. I would rather climb a mountain in high heels than call a cab. D: I wore the wrong type of shoes to walk long distances :<

But hey, it’s exercise, right?

I feel "blechy" about writing poetry right now. I'm not sure if I'm going to take more stabs at the moment (I've already tried writing two pantoums, and then stopped because I realized they were hideous), but I've been more in the mood to write short stories instead. Colette and Chopin are more or less inspiring, but they both make you wish you had been the author. D; I am positive, though, that I will not be sharing my poetry with anyone for quite some time.

Does anyone know of a good prompt site? I use to know of one, but I've lost the web address. Or if you have any ideas of your own, tell me D:

Also: Solia Online, anyone? x3 I have referrals to put out, so let me know if you're thinking of making an account there D:< It looks like a copy of Gaia, only it's newer and doesn't have as many features, but on the bright side: more usernames are available (you might snag the one you want on a first try D: ) and the avatars are MUCH better than Gaia’s. :3

...And have a happy [upcoming] 4th, Americans.